你就是我的心跳

as wat i have predicted, H1N1 have reach sg ler. as of 2day, already got 4 confirmed cases in sg and 13,398 cases worldwide including 95 who died. so i predict that the figures will keep on multiplying until dunno when lor. so juz hope all of u gd luck.

anyway, i had already confirmed my attactment at the singapore turf club liao. think it will be an interesting SIP over there coz get to see horses everyday. but juz that duno wat will my job be over there. but sad to say, turf club onli wan 1 interns frm my course n so im the onli person going there. quite sad lor. but im used to being alone liao. so i think i'll be able to handle that de. glad to hear frm my lecturer that turf club will pay mi an allowance of $450-500/mth for my SIP, although it seems like cheap labour, but i think its alot better den some of my frens who is free labour as they wont get allowance at all lor. my SIP will be starting on 22nd of june which is the day rite aft my bdae till the 6th of nov. so all the best for my trip there!!!

不管6月21日当天2点你会不会来，我都会在约好的地方等你。能与你一块庆祝，是我今年唯一的心愿。不见不散！！！

• 5.03pm

我和你之间发生过太多事，暂时是不可能再在一起。从不认识到认识，从有缘到无份。或者这些都是上天的安排吧。但我终于明白，我们这两棵接枝树的分开，都不一定是件伤感的事，因为他们曾经在一起过。认识你是我这一生最快乐的一件事，我会永远永远的记住这些美好的日子。以后，我会好像细叶榕一样，默默的在远方为你送上祝福，希望你可以永远幸福，快乐。

你是我最爱的人，无论是多久，我都会等你，直到你原谅我为止。

你的幸运王子，麒杰上

• 5.oopm

i have juz watch a new HK tvb drama named 学警狙击. the show is veri nice n this song is veri touching, veri meaningful n i love it so much. this song is sang by the female lead called 江若琳, she is so pretty can? the name of the song is 手掌印, hope u ppl will like it

here is 1 pic of her

要是我重头拣选下个 明显都是错 情感可控制麽
我习惯无人好好待我 唯一伤害过 而且牺牲太多
我若试图忘记一种痛楚 然而回忆迫使背负更多
宁愿你杀掉我 就当我上了一课
做个好心分手彼此都不要拖

*明明你根本称不上值得我的吻
别再忍 好应该摆脱伤心的噩运
而情感 怎么给踩过也不沉
偏要酷爱着你这坏人
为何我即使给掌掴没有太不愤
随便笑 去讽刺我脸上的手掌印
原因 应该出于情难自禁
总要是记着你这坏人的一吻

这段感情无非伤得太多
面上唯一手掌印在唱歌
提醒我你犯错 别再放纵你找我
就当好心分开今天可干脆麽



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• 1.55pm
  
  

life is juz so sian, so boring. y is life so sian? nth interests mi anymore.

my ECG had officially become like that: __________________________, a flat line. it will not peak or rock bottom anymore. who can revive this for mi? can u?

• 10.18pm

也许我连做你朋友的资格都没有了吧。
我这一种人，根本就不配认识像你这样子的一位女生

对不起。

• 09.57pm

had a fever tis morning n i think its due to the rain this morning bah. or might be my brother spread the virus to mi. coz he oso having fever the past few days.

in school was so terrible lah. the aircon was so cold n i nv bring my jacket along lor n was like turning into an ice bar liao. somemore 2day got hematology quiz!!! i was like rushing through the paper as i wanted to get out of the place asap lah!!!!! its freaking cold in there.

juz went to see the doctor n he look quite young lor. like juz graduate frm NUS like that lor. he prescribed mi with strong dose of paracetamol n naproxen which is a analgesics but he nv give mi antacid tablet n put down a remark there that stop if gastric pain!!!!! its was like WTH!!!!!! i wonder if he made a mistake by not perscribing the antacid tablet.

anyway. was feeling damn fatigue n malaise rite now. guess i'll be turning in early 2day.

• 8.04pm

在今年的母亲节，要为全世界的母亲献上这一首唐诗，是孟郊的‘游子吟 ’

慈母手中线，游子身上衣。
临行密密缝，意恐迟迟归。
谁言寸草心，报得三春晖。

第一二句：兹母用手中的线，缝好了出门远行的儿子身上的衣服。
第三四句：她在儿子临行时密密麻麻地缝了一针又一针，心上怕的是独生子迟迟不回家。
第五六句：谁说小草的嫩茎，能够报答春天阳光的恩。对于春日般的母爱，小草似的儿女，怎能报答于万一呢？

这首诗表达了母亲们的伟大，对儿女们无私的奉献与关爱。
把这首诗送给全天下慈祥的母亲们，祝你们母亲节快乐。

• 10.09pm

今天是我认识你两个月的纪念日，虽然已经没有机会再和你一起庆祝了，但是我还是很庆幸在我的人生中，曾经有你的出现。因为你的出现让我的人生中增添不少的色彩，也让我从你的道理中吸取了不少经验与知识。天下无不散之宴席，欢乐的时光也过得特别的快，只是没想到它会在那短短的5个星期就结束了。我知道我已没有办法再和以前一样跟你一起有说有笑，一块出门，看电影，吃饭，打保龄球了。非常想念你叫我傻瓜的样子和声音，非常想念和你一起打保龄球，总分合计有290和295的分数。非常想念每晚和你聊电话直到你入睡为止，非常想念每次和你在戏院和你玩爆米花的那一幕。非常想念送你回家在190巴士上你靠着我的肩膀小睡的时候。非常想念和你在一起的很多很多，但我也深深了解以前的时光也不可能再回头了，我只希望以后你的人生能够活得更加精彩，更加美好。我也会去试着去习惯没有你的生活。今天这个时候会是我最后一次为你落下眼泪，日后的那些日子没有你，我会好好的生活下去的，我会考到GPA 3.5以上，不会辜负你对我学业上的期望，你给我的那些回忆，虽然以都是曾经，但我非得承认它们都是甜美的。这也会是我花上一辈子也无法忘掉的回忆。谢谢你，谢谢你曾经出现在我的人生中。谢谢你给了我那么美好的一段回忆，好让我怀念一辈子。这也会是我最后一次着我的部落阁中提到你。

虽然我不相信有前世，今生，来世，但是如果真的有来世的话，希望我们还能够再续前缘。
临走之前为你送上最后一首歌曲，js的‘你是此生最美的风景’。

还记得那年的夏天 椰子树占据了海边
太阳光灿烂得刺眼
你轻轻吻了我的脸
飞机越过海面 划下微笑弧线

就在一瞬间 你和我之间
相隔一个世纪般遥远
幻想的时间 却带不走回忆里的画面

*你是此生最美的风景
让我心碎却如此着迷
就算世界动荡
再绝望也有微笑的勇气
你是此生最美的风景
才令我至今一再想起
这样爱过一个人
是多幸福的事情

后来我们又再遇见
虽然成熟了些 笑容却都没变

就在那瞬间 有很多感觉
排山倒海淹没了视线
你没有开口 紧紧地拥抱着却意味深远

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以为时间可以 像沙滩和潮汐
拭去回忆痕迹 Wo~
我们如果不曾分离
我不会发现最后回到原地 还是最爱你

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你是此生最美的风景
才令我至今一再想起
这样爱过一个人
是多幸福的事情

• 11.03am

在我的记忆中，我明明记得很清楚和你的每一段回忆都是美好，甜蜜的。但是我总是想不通为什么每当我回想起和你在一起的时光时，眼泪都会忍不住地掉下来。你这样子算是在惩罚我之前所犯下所有的过错吗？这快结束了吗？没有你的日子，人生实在是一点意义也没有。这几个礼拜，除了想你以外，我做任何事都提不起劲儿。你就是我的全部，我的心跳，主宰了我的一生，你知道吗？我需要你在我的人生中给我直指引，因为我曾说过你就像是我生命中的一盏明灯，照亮我的一生。没有了你，我的人生就好像只有黑暗没有了光明。你能回到我的身边，当我的那盏明灯，指引我继续往前走吗？

p.s.: LY, 我需要你，你听见了吗？
很爱恨爱你的傻瓜字

• 9.03pm

my wishlist:

• hope that u r not angry with mi anymore, coz the times w/o u is really unbearable
• chat with u on the phone every nite before u slp n hear a sweet gd nite frm u, as chatting with u will make my day a pleasant 1 even though its not
• get a subway cookies for u like wat i have promised u, coz i know u'll definitely like it
• play bowling with u @ E! hub n get a combined score of >300, coz u'll be veri happy when u bowled extremely well n bolwing alley there is fastastic
• watch a romance movie with u @ the cathay, coz i haven have the chance to catch romance movie with u
• eat botak jones @ the youth park opposite cineleisure with u, as i promised to treat u that
• to sing 爱的主旋律with u hand in hand coz the lyrics of the song is actually wat i wanted to say to u
• go to the airport with u again to enjoy the scenery as thats also 1 of our pleasant memories
• be together with u, which is my wish since the 1st day i know u.

will they ever come true? thats a big question mark inside my head. i wonder do u still rmb all the memories that we had. btw, i still kept the 百万大歌星 show that u ask me to record and im still waiting for u to come my hse n watch that, but dun worry i wont be deleting. so when u feel like watching it ler den u come lor.

anyway, have been having a bad mood n have blew my temper to ppl ard me esp my mum. i wanna apologise to u for that coz i know u r having a hard time at this period, sorry mummy.

p.s.: 我的愿望，你听见看见了吗？
很爱恨爱你的傻瓜字

• 9.42pm

i remembered that i once promised u that i will not let my tears flow down my face ever again but whenever i think of u, the times we had together n ur msn nick, im unable to control my feelings anymore n juz 情不自禁 de cry out loud. this had hppn i dunno how many times ever since u left me n im really not getting any better as times goes by. juz wanna apologise to u once again that i broke my promise that i made to u.

rmb we once sang this song tgt, which is 小鬼&卓文宣 de 爱的主旋律. i hope that i can have the chance to sing this song with u again hand in hand.

鬼：是你在那个雨季 走进我生命
带着一点任性 和温柔的表情
^萱：是你在那个雨季 赶走了孤寂
温暖的笑容 换我仅有的坚定

#鬼：天上一万颗星星 我却只看见你
要说这是幸运 还是不可思议
萱：身边有太多风景 我却停在这里
说我傻的可以 还不是因为你

*鬼：是你的声音 萱:带给我勇气
鬼：恋爱的频率 萱:直到我心底
鬼：如果你愿意 萱:是否我愿意
合：来自我幸福的主旋律
鬼：从前都失意 萱:现在我相信
鬼：天空会放晴 萱:爱会更甜蜜
鬼：如果你愿意 萱:是否我愿意
合：爱的主旋律 永远唱下去

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la..... la..... la.....

鬼：如果你愿意 萱:是否我愿意
合：来自我幸福的主旋律
鬼：从前都失意 萱:现在我相信
鬼：天空会放晴 萱:爱会更甜蜜
鬼：如果你愿意 萱:是否我愿意
合：爱的主旋律 永远唱下去

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• 8.33pm

this few days when i open my fridge, i'll see the left over puddings that i took back from sakura when i went there with u n the chocolates that we bought at the candy empire. whenever i saw those stuffs, my mind will 不由自主 de think of u. all our past wonderful memories will float at the back of my mind. thats y i dare not finish all those left over puddings n chocolates coz im afraid that once i finish them, the memories will be gone n never come back anymore. i dunno whether will there be anymore chance that we can have somemore great moments tgt, so i dun wanna lose any of these memories with u. coz seriously, they r extremely wonderful that i will never wan to forget them. hope that we can still have the chance to go out tgt bah.

im really apologetic for all the things that i have done that might hurt u gal, here is another song that i wanna dedicate to u gal, the song is 'sorry' by 苏永康. below is the lyrics.

Sorry... I am really sorry.
我又一次把你气哭在陌生街头
爱你... 我当然爱你
自从第一眼到现在什至没人敢预测的将来
^请你相信不是我不愿意改变我自已
而是一再努力又一再放弃那个软弱的自已

#其实我恨透了我自已没有认输的勇气
让你受尽了不安和委屈

*你是我这一生这一生最最最害怕去伤害到的人
也是我这一生这一生唯一能让我安定下来的人
虽然我并没有并没有并没有一身温纯的灵魂
但是我很愿意很愿意做那个永远照顾你的人
我的爱人请听我有颗不善言语的心
只能够看着你远处的背影

^#**

p.s.:我是真心想跟你说声sorry，希望你会原谅我所做的一切。我爱你。
很爱恨爱你的傻瓜字

• 10.21pm

trial 2day was really bad n it has been quite a long time since i last bowled so badly, an avg of only i think 130 n i doubt i'll be able to get into the team. :(

juz onli 2day i realised that bowling can be so boring, uninteresting n unenjoyable w/o u bowling with me by my side. every ball that i throw, be it a strike, a spare or it goes into the gutter( long kang) really serve no purpose to me anymore. i cant see the joy i used to have for bowling anymore coz no matter how well or how worse i bowled, i really feel nth already. n also u did say u hate the face of me when i bowl, coz my expression is ugly. so i have decided to stop bowling in the near future no matter whether i make it into the team or not. maybe till the day i have gotten over u completely or i can feel my passion for bowling again, i will start to bowl again bah. or till the day u ask me out for bowling tgt, which is quite impossible i guess.

p.s.: 后悔不贴心会痛，恨不懂你会痛，想见不能见最痛
很爱恨爱你的傻瓜字

• 7.25pm

tml will be my bowling trial selection ler. so excited abt it lor. so 2day i went to safra tamp to bowl n get try to get used to the lanes for tml de games. played a total of 8 games with an avg of 159. highest game was 191 n lowest game was 119, which is the 1st game. 1st ball avg was 8.3. hope i can get selected n get into TP de bowling team as the team is full of elites n im sure i can get to learn alot if i get in the teams. really hope that u'll be there tml to give me the support that i need n share the joy with me if i really get selected coz i really wanna share my happiness n joy with u. with ur support, i believe that i'll be able to make it de. tml its going to be 10am @ safra tamp. hope to see u there.

1 song that i wanna dedicate to u gal, which is 永不消失的彩虹 by 卓文宣。the lyrics goes like this:

我看见你的瞳孔 看见的那片天空
你指尖尽头 架空属於我的梦
那是清澈的星河 那是橘色的云朵
遥远的天国 建筑这一道彩虹

^你把我眼底的寂寞 彩绘成缤纷的宇宙
跟在你身后 带我静静遨游

*请不要放开我的双手
不要缺席我的以后
请留给我 慢慢消失的那一道彩虹
已经习惯你的双手
牵著我的那种温柔
只有你懂 我会流泪是因为最深处的感动

我以为天是黑的 你忽然放了烟火
我才发现我 生命可以很闪烁

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请不要关掉我的镜头
不要熄灭我的以后
快给黑夜 永不消失的那一道彩虹
已经习惯我的双手
你能感受我的颤抖
只要你懂 我会流泪是因为最深处的感动