你就是我的心跳

i juz got my Major Project de topic this week. it seems like a veri interesting topic and the vet that gave mi this project he said that project is given to mi as their company de project. and he mention that, if this project is well done, it may be brought over to australia de riding school or something like that for presentation. coz they actually had an international conference on something regarding my project. so they hope that i can produce a result that they wanted.

but before that, upon completion of my project, i'll have to present it to all the vets present in the turf club. they will judge how i fare and decide on the later ones. the vet who scope this project for mi was oso veri helpful lor. he actually helped mi to find all the relevant acticles for mi to read up as my literature review, while others have to find all by their own wan lor. he gave mi the project on tues late aftnoon n he handed mi tons of articles on wed morning!!! so gd rite? i so looking forward to working with him for my MP lor. guess i'll be busy with my MP these following wks ler.

i juz get to know that u arent feeling veri well these few days. so i really wish that god will bring all these away from u and nth is going to hppn to u de. hope that u'll be happy n carefree from now onwards.

take care gal.

只要你过得比我好 by 钟镇涛:

^不知道你现在好不好
是不是也一样没烦恼
像个孩子似的神情忘不掉
你的笑对我一生很重要

#这些年你过得好不好
偶尔是不是也感觉有些老
像个大人般的恋爱 有时心情糟
请你相信我在你身边别忘了

*只要你过得比我好 过得比我好
什么事都难不倒
所有快乐在你身边围绕
只要你过得比我好 过得比我好
什么事都难不倒 一直到老

重复 ^ # *, *x2

• 9.44pm

我之前还以为我能够追回我所失去的一切一切，但我才发现，世界上最快的奥运田径选手，它也许能追得上匹马，狮子，甚至是豹子，但他永远都不可能追得上一样东西，那就是时间。连奥运选手都最不回时间的步伐，更何况只是区区的一个我？时间，它也许是个治疗伤口的最佳良药，但也可能是个无声的杀手。

• 9.10pm

i juz know last wk that all the horses that are in turf club has to be castrated as the production of testosterone will divert their concentration on the running for the races. then 2day when i made my way to endoscopy to collect the blood tubes for testing, i was told that there is a horse that is going to be castrated on the spot!!!! n i was actually asked to stay to watch how the vet did it!!! the onli appropriate word that i can use to describe that whole process is GORE!!! its really bloody n gore lor. the worse thing is that before i know all that, the vet tell mi that they are going to prepare a wonderful breakfast for mi and asked mi if i wanted it baked, or grilled. then i look so blur down there until my mentor told mi that they are going to perform a castration on the horse. it literally makes mi lose all my appetite for my lunch. though the scene wasnt pleasant at all, but its really an experience for mi to view that whole process.

• 9.40pm

没有你的第75天，我觉得我过的不是很好，但能说的是至少比之前好多了。可能是因为现在attachment的关系，就比较忙了些，然后也没什么时间去想以前的事。但是偶尔时不时，你还是会突然的出现在我的脑海里。每次想起你，眼泪还是会情不自禁的往下掉。我还真得很怀念与你在一起的每一份每一秒，虽然我们已不能回到过去，但是和你在一起的所有回忆，都是值得怀念的。我还是无法放得下你，你已占据了我心里大部分的位子了，已经没办法在容得下别人。我这几天都有一直上你的部落阁，想知道你最近过得好不好，有没有什么头昏脑热的，因为我真的好害怕会完全失去你的消息。但我知道你最近应该都过得很好，这样子我就已经很安慰了。

还很怀念你叫我‘傻瓜’的那把声音。但那把声音我想应该永远都不会回来了吧。

依然好想你。

温岚的傻瓜:

其实他做的坏事我们都懂
没有什么不同
眼光闪烁 暧昧流动
闭上眼当作听说

^其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱 撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭

#傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作爱
上了我不保留

*傻瓜 我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤
傻瓜 我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

重复 ^#*,*

• 9.06pm

ytd, i heard from my mentor that there will be an internal audit nx wk and the auditors are coming on nx monday!!!!! they will have to inspect our lab lor. so 2day n tml will be a veri busy day for mi n my mentor liao. coz we 2day juz cleared the 2 fridges in our lab for the expired reagent. it filled up the whole biohazard bag for ur info okay? its so much n so heavy. den i need to check all the files n documents to make sure that they are in place. i filpped through a total of 4 files which each of them contains 500 lab request form(LRF). i filpped till my hands ache n check till my eye pain lor.

so much things left for us to complete tml lor. hope tml will not have alot of samples or specimens. if not, i dun think we can finish all the stuff by tml. have to clear up all the mess in the lab n tidy it up nicely before we leave tml. guess im prepared to do OT tml already. but btw, im not paid for doing OT. but no choice, have to. coz the audit in on monday liao.

hope i can finish everything by tml.
wish mi gd luck!!!

• 11.03pm

2day heard an extremely bad news @ ard 11am when i reach the endoscopy to collect specimen. my mentor when to see if there is any specimens to collect for testing. den she asked mi to walk over to her side n look at the LRF(laboratory request form), i was stunned to see the test: fecal pH!!!!!!!!!! argh. den we cant find that specimen on the tray, so we went to the vet's office to ask him for it. he said that he placed it on the tray in a glove!!! den we went back to endoscopy to look for that faeces, but it was not there and we ask all the personnel there they didnt see it or might have threw it away. we called the doctor again n guess wat he says? he said: den u guys have to go to the stables and collect it!!!!! i was shocked to hear that!!! meaning that we will have to go collect the faeces ourselves.

so SWAY lor. got fecal de specimen already veri SWAY liao, somemore still lose that specimen.

so no choice, we went to the stable. on the way, my mentor, who is my senior, she ask mi to be a gentleman and do it, so i guess i have no choice but to do it. upon reaching the stable, we ask for the horse to collect the faeces. the trainer was so gd that he collected it on my behalf and handed mi that. so grateful to him lor

den aft that proceeded back to lab to do the test. now the lab stinks like hell lor. hope it will be gone by tml.

it still a fun learning experience though. enjoyed my internship in STC so far :)

• 10.44pm

2day is my 1st day of SIP @ the turf club. the only word that i can use is great!!!!!! coz 2day i learned quite lot of stuffs in the lab from my mentor, who hppns to be an ex TP student in the same course as mi. she juz gratuated lor. i get to learn how to run control samples, data entering and different tests procedures using the analyzers. N 2day i get to do the full blood count using the analyzer 2day lor!!!!!!!!!! following all the test den i was asked to do data entry into the LIS and print the report. the report were later sent to the vets for review n signature.

she also brings mi to the endoscopy department to meet all the vets and introduce them to mi 1 by 1 and they were all ANG MO's lor. i cant see an asian vet there. i cant seens to rmb all their names but i'll try my best to. n i get to speak to a vet as he came to our lab 2day. i saw him extracting all the serum from the blood tubes using a syringe, so i asked him why is he doing this. he told mi that actually this is used to treat the horse's (same horse from blood drawn) eye as it hurts its cornea. he said that the serum is actually good for healing of eye injuries. thats really a learning point.

overall it was a wonderful 1st day @ turf club as i get to see many horses and meet many ppl.ppl there are nice, friendly n helpful towards mi as a intern, esp my mentor. she is really patient. although she had many things to complete on a monday morning, she drove mi (using a buggy) around to familarise with the environment and teach mi step by step each of the procedures of each test.

hope that each day will be a fun learning experience for mi @ turf club :)

• 10.37pm